August 28, 2006 And if life just wants me to be sad about everything and cry every night then I've already lost the battle. So tell me what is there to fight for?
On another note, thanks lic and des for the MOS treat. Thanks for piglet. Sorry to everyone for making them angry today.
Sigh sigh sigh.
I wish time would just freeze and not move anymore. Not that I'm enjoying myself at all now. I just don't want tomorrow to come. I hate being alone. I don't want to be alone ; especially after 1year of school with people around every single time. I like company. I want company. I need company. Or else why would I want to take up work apart from wanting extra money?
I wish I could just give up and walk away and leave others to clean my footsteps. Where I've been and what I've done. Irresponsible but I just don't like it either.
I try to tire myself with everything possible. Sleep late, wake up early, whatever else. And yet, at the end of the day everything just floods back. Very good.
I just so wish it was last time where I could just run to people for help whenever I feel down and walk away feeling the load taken off my shoulders even if it wasn't exactly solved. I just miss everything of it. And I mean everything.